yonder ways

well
im a newbie to bloggin. ive only been around for three months or so huh?

and its funny that

seems longer
to me

so this is my first ever guest post anyways. like - with the keys to the house and stuff. it feels neat :)

cuz
i do feel honoured eh?
bein welcomed in so quick by a dearsweet guy like edge :)

and ok
im gonna do my best to actually stay on topic - just for once and all :)

i started bloggin
as an attempt to stop some other stuff happenin in my life. cuz see
when things are real hard for me
i hide out.

i put my fine face on and i smile lots and i tell folks how im doin ok. and apparently i can be real persuasive with that man.

but
the last little while

i havent been ok. ive been miles from that pretty much :/

and it feels hard ya know? tellin people in my 3d life about whats goin on in my head. cuz well - its not always a real nice place to visit huh? :/ dark and broodin and cobwebs in the corners. not somewhere anyone would want to spent a lot of time and that. shit - i kinda wish *i* could get out of it some days :/

so
my blog
is my voice
loud and clear to the rafters man

thats how it started

its the place where i can talk about lots of the things that i sit with. and if my sweet friends are up to visitin me and hearin it - they can.

so
its kinda a way of bein visible - but not intrudin so much on their needs. or - i hope it is anyways :/

and thats why you see some of my 3d friends floatin round my site. its cuz they were the only ones i was expectin to visit me really.

and then

well
im not sure what happened then :/

it was kinda
i started clickin round and left a few comments here and there. and folks started writin me back huh?
and it was just
on and on from there i guess.

i cant remember exactly how i met edge. i think that it might have been thru rick - but im not totally sure.

i know that he managed to find a place in my heart real quick. i know that i feel lucky to know him in the small ways i do :)

i feel lucky knowin so many of you. it is a good reminder for me huh? round how there is so much good in the world and how people can reach inside themselves and give so much and

its just
not all the basement eh?

theres a meadow out there
where circles of friends gather
to love and laugh and weep and
hear

and thanks
to edge and to all of you
for welcomin me in to your circle

love
pete/maddy/us