Openings

I think sometimes at the root of our discontent, our oft whispered desperation, is our wish to seek out that place where our soul is sated, comfortable, content and safe, and then start gettng our mail there. Perch there. I am here now and I am not leaving. This is what I want and if it changes or I don't have it I'm going to be less, I'm not going to like it. And I will offer less of myself, I'll hold back, I will and then I will nudge you off of your foundation, pitch you downhill whether it be a slow tumble or a plunge.....and there you go, there you are. And instead of accepting the dynamic that all things are in a state of change at all times, actually the law of physics is that all things are in a state of decline but maybe we shouldn't go there, my intent is not to depress, really it's not.

But it is changing constantly and damn that's hard to deal with because I loved yesterday and I want it back.

It's gone, you can't have it back.

And if you keep looking behind you, backwards instead of forward, you might not be ready for what is around the next bend, through the next door, under the next rock. It might not all be what you want, you expect it to sustain you you're going to wear the cloak of disappointment a great deal of the time.

You know that feeling when you are looking over your shoulder and out of nowhere, suddenly, you're startled by almost running someone over because you didn't see them coming?

A person could get hurt that way, not watching where they are going.